Well, yesterday wasn't such a good day for me... I stay tired all day and it rained most of the day, but I made it through. I had written a lot about Kaylee last night I couldn't sleep, like tonight as well so I've decided early to start writing a bit about my first year with Kaylee, a bit early. I guess one of my followers got bored, but I hope to not let anyone else down who comes my way. I've been tired, and well, now I can't sleep.. so I write.



We've almost made it through our first year together, Kaylee and I. Her birthday is coming up, it's May 7, 2010. I know the first year is always the most important year to bond with a child. Ive been so fortunate to spend most of my time with Kaylee in her first year. I really shouldn't write about the first year together until her birthday, cause I want to make a complete and accurate blog of our whole year together, and it gets my readers excited about reading what I have to say about Kaylee and our first year together... It's going to be a different blog...

so, In the last two days, I've come to realize how close she has become to me. I already knew how special and close she and I would become from the day she was born.

Two days ago her step-grandmother came to pick her up, like any other normal day, and Kaylee didn't want to leave with her. Kaylee bowed up and she had to practically pull her away from me.. Kaylee was throwing her first actual fit and didn't want to leave with her, she kept grabbing at me to take her. I picked her up from the other grandmother and gave her a kiss and told her it was okay, and I would see her again in a couple of days. I gave her back to the other grandmother but with her crying frantically.. it broke my heart.

We had the day apart, and I felt an emptiness inside. She had her day with the other grandmother, well step grandmother, and I'm going to admit that she loves Kaylee, as if, Kaylee was her own. She doesn't have any real children of her own. Well okay, I get her back the next day and we have a beautiful and better day that day. I'm still trying to help her walk. I didn't have much luck with it that day. Something has made her fearful of taking those first couple of steps again. I'm not sure if she has fallen or just gave up all together right now, I think she's going to have to work up that nerve again, but she seems fearful again. Okay so the beautiful day wasn't much exciting as most days, so we are back at the leaving again for the day.. and you guessed it, another day of being reluctant to leave with the other grandmother. She cried when I handed her off, so I had to turn my back and just walk back inside the house.

Friday and a new day, I wasn't so prepared as I have been most of the week when she had gotten here. I usually get up have her an egg poached and a piece of toast ready with grape jelly, but the morning I woke up late. But all and all, I got straight up and into the routine rather quickly. We had breakfast, but unlike most days, we didn't do our lay down nap together, I decided to take her out for a ride and she took a nap in the car listening to the symphony channel, I got some lunch, she was still asleep, we went to wal-mart and she had some fast food today... which is something I never ever usually do, but she loves french fries. I gave her a few of mine to pass her over until we got back home.

I bought her some shoes and some summer outfits.. I'll have some pictures to post before I finish posting today, but she loves to shop, so we have a lot in common with the shopping hahaha! So we managed to spend about an hour shopping and then off to home we go. When we got here, I fed her a usual dinner of Gerber's mac and carrots withf peas.. she loves em. Then we got back into the routine of the day, she had her bath and we dress up in the new clothes, went outside to stroll a bit and took some photos, it was beautiful outside today.. no rain!

I want to leave with a beautiful quote I found on another website about grandchildren:

It's such a grand thing to be a mother of a mother - that's why the world calls her grandmother. ~Author Unknown

Thanks, Jamie